Interestingly enough the story made it all the way to msnbc. A great deal of things were still left out and that just saddens me. There’s no arguing that my brother was angered by events that led up to his death, who wouldn’t be? I want to know what got him that angry however, why is this being left out? One of the newspaper spelled his name incorrectly and sadly didn’t do their “journalism” well.

Well to add to my previous post, I guess it is a big deal and got to msnbc because the person who shot him was an Assistant Attorney General. I certainly hope that they know that we intend to make sure this is investigated thoroughly, I am tired of young men being made statistics.

I’ll shed another tear, my love, my questions are left unanswered.
What was in your mind, how you felt… It was a bad day, the wrong day.

Life wasn’t fair to you, my love, your mind was too tiny to see.
The truth is, I wanted you to see the world with me.

I hope you’re out there looking down,
See, it hurts, I cried all day long.

Sleep. Just Sleep.

I’ll wake and shed another tear, my love.

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Writing the Eulogy.

Today I thought about how meaningless a great deal of life is. I. E. why bother to work really hard, why bother getting materialistic things when nothing else matters? The only thing that matters to me is the people that I get myself involved with. I love my family dearly – yes every good and bad part – I guess it makes my life interesting, and I love my friends. I read in the book “Clearing your Clutter with Fengshui” that we are simply renting our bodies on Earth. That made me wonder so I am choosing to believe that my brother is currently renting another in some other time and space. Maybe he will be someone else’s brother, maybe he will grow up a better life. Maybe he would finally gain all those positive things that I always hoped for him. I choose to hope for that.