The tattoo drawn by my brother that I mentioned in a previous post.

To my Best Friend I will Never Forget

R. I. P. My boy Gilbert.
I missed all the times we share
Knowing you would be there
Everytime something went wrong
You were always there
But now all I could say is “GoodBye”
Missing you so much
Knowing it would rain
And so many tears to share

From: Pampaz
To My Best Friend
R. I. P. Gilbert Thomas

Pampaz & Calton Best Friends
Rest in Peace Gilbert Thomas

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I decided to share something written for my brother by his best friends. His girlfriend of 5 years is taking it pretty hard also – I seriously didn’t know he had a gf for that long.

Sad news, I may have to head back to NY as I intended. I will be missing the funeral. That decision was difficult because it was a catch22. I don’t think it’s fair in any way but I intend to try to correct it by visiting the place where he will be buried and purchasing flowers for the grave site. Also, I removed the fund because we came to the conclusion that whatever is donated can be sent directly to the “father,” (placed in quotes for a reason. I created a password protected post about it you will have to email me/leave a comment for the password. Basically I wrote about some family members and things that they said that hurt my feelings in this past week. I guess no one really writes books about the correct things to say during a mourning period amongst family. What sucked most about it was that NONE of those who told me those hurtful things have spoke to my brother in the past 2 years +).
Anyway, I still intend to create a scholarship in my brother’s name as soon as I make enough. These problems just motivate me to do better. I think my current family of my mom, sis and I deserve a better life than what once was. I wish my brother had lived long enough to experience that. We had just finally gotten things together with him included, now that he isn’t here anymore it does hurt.