Finally a date. May 10th. :-/ the funeral will be taking place next saturday, not this.

As I said, it isnt our fault for making it that date. I guess it gives some people time to get here. It’s not normal for funerals to last that long.

The part that sucks the most is that we’ve spent the past week trying to get used to the fact that he is gone. He’s not out hanging with his friend or working late. When the funeral occurs is when we’ll see him again. Lifeless. I feel like that is like a slap in the face.

Another slap in the face was more info from the investigation. Everything shows that he was murdered intentionally. As I said from the beginning, nothing adds up at all. I wonder if someone is trying to hide something. I got angry when I heard about the new leads and I got so angry and I do hope… I truly hope that the son of a bitch who killed him rots in hell. I hope that he feels the pain that we do right now. I wish that he was in a room where he can be tortured. Hopefully I can see him one day and look him in the eye and tell him what a piece of shit he is. He needs to know how much he took away from my family. I do hope he spends the rest of his life regretting the fact that he killed someone who was innocent.

I dont even know what to do right now, I’ve been staying up later and later.  I shared the new info with my bf today and he said, the thing about this situation is, nothing can bring my brother back. It’s just like this war that is being fought. Every innocent person who has been killed, cannot be brought back to life. Does George Bush feel any regret? Knowing that every innocent soldier who died in this war will not be revived and that they had friends, parents, lovers, siblings, etc. Did the man who killed my brother know that he couldnt bring my brother back to life? He is coldblooded. I feel that he is a monster. :-/

My brother was loved. He loved us. He showed that. I wish we had that back.