I have officially been at my job for a year. I got promoted to senior designer a few months ago. This has been an interesting journey. Now that I am done playing house, I feel like a weight has been lifted. Not only that, it’s 10 degrees cooler today ^.^ I don’t mind the weather now (it was sweltering yesterday). I sort of wish that I wasn’t leaving the apartment but I think when I move to Brooklyn I will get to do the things that I wasn’t able to do. I will finally be able to hang out with other creative people like me. It’s mostly because the other night when I had a change of environment, I realized my place did lack warmth.

Other than that, I am doing pretty good. The only thing that I cried about yesterday was memories of my brother. I messaged my friend and with his soothing, comforting voice, he says, “hey hun.” Then he tells me all these great positive things to get my through the painful memories. We did end up discussing the relationship that he didn’t want to interfere with in the beginning – I told him he should have let me know that I was falling into a trap. He said I did convince him since I sounded happy. Fair enough. Boundaries are things that only I held dare to these couple of years. Now everyone is telling me that my problem was that I needed someone who was more social like I was. Alex is (yes is) really a nice guy however and I do wish him luck (even if two days ago I really wanted him to get out of my face and get hurt this time but it’s because I was hurt). I think what happened is: He changed who he was to be with me and even if it took him 2 years to realize this, it took him one day to drop it in my lap and have me simply confirm and accept it. Eh, oh well such is life – I just wish I knew what was happening. I am sure we’ll remain friends when this entire tidal wave calms. I am still mad at that girl who said, “Maybe Jerlyn isn’t ready for someone like you.” I hate how people outside of relationships are so critical when they aren’t sure of what happens in them but, I am happy that both Alex and I see what happened in retrospect.

Anyway, unfortunately my point and shoot camera got broken :(. I want to get a Canon PowerShot A590 IS Digital Camera (which was just added to my wishlist) I’ve been checking some things off my list to do today.

I am going to check an apartment today so hopefully it’s spacious.
Also finding the prices of the UHaul.

Also, today, the guy from the blog post who handed me his number one day was at my stop. I said hi. He’s very shy. My co workers teased me about it because they asked if he is the rebound guy (of course not – there wont be one). I actually spoke to him for awhile because I didn’t before because I was respecting my relationship. I gotta tell you though, this freedom thing is very fun. I can speak to anyone and that is how life should be. Peace and Love.