Today I packed up the kitchen, sorting my things. I decided to spend the night again by friends since I work from home again tomorrow. Just 1 days away from being free from all this mess. Last night I had fun, I finished a bottle of rum creme with my friend and today after our 1/2 day at work, I went out to drink with co workers. I completely cleaned the kitchen, washed dishes, I still have to empty the refridgerator but that will be done soon. Then maybe vacuum and do some sweeping.

Today I also logged all of Alex’s text messages because last night he went psychotic. I am just archiving them, including those where he tried to solicit me to protect myself after what occurred last night. He basically called me to tell me to get out of the house so he could come in to get his things. I thought that was ridiculous since I was simply packing to go to my friend’s house anyway and why would I get out of an apartment that I pay 1/2 the rent for? I texted him back and told him to not be childish and just get his things. It’s not like he doesn’t have a key and I locked him out of the apartment. He said he would get a restraining order on me after we leave “and it will be on my record.” I laughed at that because for the past days when he broke up with me, I hadn’t messaged him or called him. I simply ignored him. When I came from work or from hanging out with my peers, he would be the one to come up to me and ask how was my day. So he text me back and said he will get the cops to get his things, I responded, “Do it.” For every messaged I sent to him I asked him to “please do not contact me.” I spoke to a cop earlier that day, to know my rights, after he threatened me. The officer gave me great advice. I am beginning to wonder whether Alex thinks that I am stupid -that I am incapable of moving on, that I can’t handle myself in this situation. I’ve already reached the conclusion that we are done and I do not expect to mend anything. So texting me messages like, “I hate you. Go to hell” is not only childish but shows how such a baby he is. It really sucks that he shows me that he is so weak. I still can’t believe this is the person I dated for 2 years.

Also, he even decided that he didn’t want to give me his Dell tower anymore (the one that I upgraded and did my freelance on) and told me to take the RAM and harddrive out and I can’t have it. I chuckled because I realized that he did that because he had always been envious of me making money with my freelance work. I don’t understand why a guy like him wouldn’t prefer that his gf was making extra money and was independent. He told me to keep the kingsize bedframe (I bought the mattress) however, because he knows it won’t fit in his apartment and what would he do with a bed frame :-). He really thinks I am not smart enough to figure him out.

I think I am handling this break up better than he is. He did tell me guys handle break ups worse than women… who knows. I just realized that he was right, we werent compatible, and he wasn’t the one for me. I spent the past days trying to learn about myself so that I do not make that mistake again for settling for less. 🙂

However, seriously if you broke up, why would you try to communicate with me still like we are buddies when we arent? It does suck abit because I did think he was my best friend but by being my best friend I didn’t expect him to do certain things like he had. It’s almost like I had two significant people who left my life this year: My brother and a guy I thought I once loved.