I poured tears tonight for my brother. I knew it was bound to catch up to me. I’ve just been so absorbed into work and moving that I just numbed myself but the only emptiness I feel is for him. Even my mom’s status has that it gets harder everyday. She has to be feeling it a lot more than me because she had the last year, months, days of his life living with her. I want to go back on his birthday but I think I would simply want the day off to reflect. I wonder if the events occuring right now is him being an angel looking out for me. This has been the most challenging year of my life. Mourning isn’t easy at all.