Toast to resolutions
I thought I wouldn’t officially start my resolution list on January 1st, and of course, I didn’t. I’m stubborn. I had to take time to think about it and the first day seemed appropriate.
I started off doing something that’s not out-of-the-norm: Embracing life. If you know me, you know that I do not hold back. You are most likely to have me try anything (except drugs) that I hadn’t done before because of intrigue. So, this year, January 1st—I decided to join my running team for 7 miles and do the polar bear plunge into the Atlantic Ocean. Yes, jumping into freezing water appealed to me. My only assumption was that it would feel similar to the Tough Mudder Artic Enema obstacle (It wasn’t). I packed my Go Pro (watch the video here) to prove that I did it and was on my way to meet them at 11am.
I’m so happy that I did it—despite assuming that I would chicken out last minute. Somehow when I started removing my running gear to strip into my bathing suit, I felt warmer. I jogged into the water, dunked in and came back out. I almost thought about staying in to swim a little. Like I said, I was happy that I did it. It’s unfortunate when I read commentary by people on my social network wondering why I had done it. Or, they would never do it. So resolution number 1: Remind myself that the things that I do, and the reaction of others to it (good or bad), in no way should affect my feelings on what I made up my mind to do.
This one was tough but I had to make it official because last year was extremely chaotic. I allowed myself to succumb to situations where I cared what others thought when I wasn’t usually like this. In the end, to be me: I do cool shit—or what I consider cool shit—I do things because as an adrenaline junkie it makes me feel like I’m living life. I’m embracing every moment. I’ll always have a story and those stories will be worth it. That always makes me happy. When others doubt, it doesn’t leave me space to be happy.
Anyway, there’s certainly some things that I’m looking forward to improve or start during the new year. To do this, I had to really think about last year. I had to look at the things that I won’t change ever about myself and take an honest look at what might improve my well-being.
I’ll love more – I do date often, however, I’m in no way generous about how I feel about others. So, I’ll be careful about how I approach dating this year. I’m turning 30. I do not want to waste time anymore.
Travel more – I was relying on either traveling with friends or meeting someone to travel more however, I’ll miss out on time that I can’t get back if I do this.
Volunteer my time more – whether it’s for charity or just giving a listening ear. I’ll try to touch/influence people as much as I can this year.
Stop running – This is more of a metaphor, because I’ll never stop running as long as I am capable. I’ll stop using my running as ways to being an introvert. I do lots of solo runs because I love being in my head. I’ll try my best to accompany others even if it’s meeting with my ultra running buddies.
Become the fittest that I can possibly get – When is this ever not in progress? Since I’m training for a 50-mile race this year, I’ll have to do this no matter what.
Stay focused – Figure out my goals and stick to them. I don’t really talk about being depressed (one day I’ll blog about this), however, I believe this influences my decisions a great deal. So, I’ll try my best to stay focused on all my goals.
Blog more – I have a few more resolutions that I’m missing. However, since I’m at a cafe blogging away and I’m being distracted, this is to be continued. I’ll blog more and hopefully become a better writer. What are your resolutions?